My mom and I were out shopping today, not really with anything in mind, we were just taking the kids for a stroll at the mall. I have been looking for a Christmas dress for Mazie and we found some really cute dresses at Sears (60% off, mind you!). I walked toward the dresses and I was suddenly overwhelmed by the Lord’s goodness. I looked at each dress with its sparkles, bows, and lace, and I thought about the little girl I would carefully put it on for the candlelight service on Christmas eve. Then I thought about last Christmas eve, it was a wonderful holiday and it was filled with family and friends… but no babies.
I remember the ache in my heart and the longing in my soul for a family of my own; little did I know all that God had in store for me right around the corner! If you would have told me at this time last year that I would be bringing not only one, but TWO babies to the Christmas eve service this year, I would not have believed you. It seemed so impossible. Even though these kids are everything my heart has ever desired and more, I still remember the hurt, as vivid as if it were yesterday. Remembering the gnawing ache of that emptiness as I walked toward those little dresses; feeling it momentarily and then having it completely eclipsed by the overwhelming joy I feel everyday when I look at those sweet babies made tears spring to my eyes instantly. The Lord is GOOD. and He makes ALL things perfect in His time.
This is national adoption month. To my friends who are still waiting; stand strong, your time is coming. The Lord will be faithful to you, continue to seek Him with all your heart. We are traveling this road together; there were certainly those that carried me along my path, never be afraid to let someone bear your burden for a season, that is the true meaning of the Church.
I titled this post “I don’t want to miss a thing”. Tyler and I have been talking lately about how the babies are almost out of “firsts”. “This is our first halloween with kids!” “This is the first Thanksgiving with our babies!” Pretty soon, we won’t be able to say that anymore, and while it makes me sad to even think about that, I just don’t want to miss one tiny thing along the way. Every moment, every new experience is a gift, and I just don’t ever want to forget that, or feel like I realized it too late.
A few weeks ago I was going out of town with my friend Shelby and her aunt. Shelby was introducing us and she said “This is Kate, the one with the two babies; haha, is that weird that you are known as ‘you know, the one with the two babies’?”
“No” I said, I loved hearing that “because you could not have said that a year ago.” God is amazingly good, He is more gracious to me than I could ever ask for or deserve. I give Him all the glory. Whatever stage you are in, in your life, stand close with your loved ones. Cherish them, love them, and treasure each moment. I don’t want you to miss a thing.
Pray about giving a loving home to a child who needs to know what a family is. Happy National Adoption Month!